Battles

It has been a month since I had the worst week I have had in a long time. I think I am finally able to do a blog about it.. 2 things happened with in 3 days of each other 1. we put our beloved dog hope to sleep and 2. i found out my job i have had for 3 years is coming to an end.

1. hope. on the night of feb 8th going into feb 9th so kinda around midnight she started having seizures. now that is nothing new she has been having those for 6 years now. so we did our routine. meds and keeping her cool and safe. when they have seizures the dog and brain can become very hot so we cool her down with showers and when the pool is up we walk with her in there. so that night my mom and dad both took turns catherine and i slept. they did not wake us. catherine had school and i only heard a few seizures so i figured they were under control. i did not have to work the next day and figured i would be with her in the morning so i wanted to sleep. normally i get up with her because i don't work in the am like my parents do.. boy was i wrong. i woke at 7 because my mom was at the dentist and catherine had to go to school so i got up and sat with hope. she just kept having seizures. bad deep seizures. she has Valium in her which is a drug that is the be all end all seizure meds. so it was bad she kept having them. well about 10ish my mom took her to the vet to have an IV of Valium to see if the constant flow of the drug would help. no, she had 4 more while at the vet. my dad said once they reach a point they will just keep having them over and over. and it was time to make the choice, keep trying to stop them and hope, hope was still there or let her go in peace. so at 1230 we said good bye to hope and put her to sleep. in that time from late late/early that morning to the time we put her to sleep, she had 21 seizures. i miss her all the time and i still can't believe she is gone sometimes. Rufus was probably the hardest thing to deal with. he was so lonely and he knew she was gone. he would sit at the laundry room door waiting for her. and he would go the gate in the back yard looking for her. that was so hard and he was so lonely. so a week after we put her to sleep we look to see if we could find a buddy for rufus. it was going to be a girl dog and we wanted something that had something similar to hope's breed.. we found bailey. bailey is jack russel, lab and Australian cattle dog (hope). we got her when she was 2 months old. so she is almost 3 months. she is a perfect buddy for rufus and man they love each other so much. playing all the time, sleep together, eating together and chasing the cats together. i am so happy we got bailey. she is a great addition to our family. i still miss hope all the time but it is nice to have a new doggie to love.

2. blockbuster. with the filing of blockbuster's bankruptcy in Sept. they have to talk with the land lords of each store and figure out leasing prices. they are asking them to lower it mostly. so each blockbuster across the USA is doing this. needless to say many stores are closing. i mean just in my little area there 5 stores. we just did not think it would be our store because we are the biggest store and have been around FOREVER! so we have been converting the store into a retail only store. no more renting only selling.. and we are selling everything in the store!! shelves, tvs, movies, candy, tables, fax machine, desk, chairs everything.. it is crazy.. so with the converting to sell everything i have been working like crazy.. in 2 weeks i did 76hours.. but still i am so tired. not just because of the work but because of all the work means. i am losing my job. i mean losing a part of my life i thought was kinda like home. i took pride in my job and in my store.. and now to deal with all these movies from other stores that have closed. we got about 100 boxes in 3 days with 200 movies in them. so it has been a nightmare. i am so ready for it to be done. i am just so tired. lol.

with my store closing i have had to figure out life. what i wanna do.. i could find a new store to go to but i don't know what kinda hours i would get and what store i would go to. how far it would be and all that stuff. it is just best to say thanks blockbuster and go out into the real world. which i am excited about and also scared. so next step time..


watching some awesome castle,
breanne