I hate when people make “rules” in a friendship. Why can’t you just be you or say what you want to say. If I have to watch what I always say because it would jeopardize a great friendship then is a real friendship? Or is it just for convince or is it an acquaintance? People are always saying they need friends and good people in their life and it is hard to find that in this world. So why would someone who says they are a friend, a great friend, want this to be so limited? Who decides what is said and what is not. If it hurts that sucks but sometimes those things need to be said. If it is funny and something you will laugh about later on what makes that more important than the problem you are having with life? I hate when people are fake and say they are friends but it is only when they nothing else to do.
I have also experience when people are fake and they help you to earn their trust and when you need them, really need them, they ignore you. Why do people offer to talk with you or help you when it is fake? Would not it just be easier to be straight and real with a person and say I don’t care about how you are feeling and I am not going to build up your hopes and trust in me as a person who cares? I know it would suck for a while if that person says that but I think in the long run it would help because you could maybe look for someone who would care with out that extra pain they caused. People saying oh yeah talk to me anytime and then when you want to talk to them. I mean obviously want to talk with them, sit next to them, stand next to them, try to join their conversation, or message them and they do nothing how does that help anything? How does that show you me care?
My thing is why can’t I leave these relationships behind? I try just to leave them alone and not really rely on them to give me validation as a human, or use them for relationship building. But I always seem to go back to them. I always seem to want to make them better or maybe see if they are different. And sometimes they might be different but only for a few months or maybe just a few times of hanging out. So in hindsight, nothing really has changed just the fake attitude.
It is funny because last post I commented on losing people. I think both of these items have come together to make me one crazy person. And I think it also has help me be very loyal to be people who do care. For all of those friends out there to everyone and anyone, tell them you care!
Depressed in az
breanne
